God has a mission for me!
I've been doing a lot of work on myself and my relationship with God along with my relationships with others. As part of my anxious attachment and Codependency- I get to a point in every relationship, romantic or otherwise, where I get to the non-trusting point and very attached, unable to detach and disconnect. In the romantic relationships, I don't trust the person even for small things, I latch on tightly due to the no trust, and it pushes the guy away. I first start out with an emotionally unavailable guy to begin with anyways.. so when he runs away and pushes away- its emotionally traumatic for me because it's like my life cant go on.. I'm addicted to the relationship, falling in love fast, and I'm mistaken as a romantic- but really that is codependent. I'm not sure how to make a real secure attachment and secure relationship- wouldn't even know how to begin? When thinking about Chris specifically, as an Antisocial personality disorder- Sociopath- h...