Anxious /Preoccupied Attachment style.. this is me

 I did the quiz on Attachmentproject.com and discovered that I'm an Anxious/preoccupied style of attachment. During the quiz I answered questions about my mom, dad, and Chris. 

During which, I cried a good bit remembering how it felt like my dad always defended me and supported me against my siblings and mom who seemed to be making fun of me. or at least it felt that way.  My dad died and I felt really abandoned ... I thought for a long time that no one would understand me or support and defend me. 


My result is that I'm Anxious/preoccupied. 



What does it mean to be anxious/preoccupied?

The anxious/preoccupied attachment style is one of the three insecure forms of attachment (anxious, avoidant, and disorganized).

The anxious/preoccupied attachment style is characterized by:

  • An inconsistent formative period which leads to low self-esteem and low self worth.
  • Constant need for external validation and reassurance from others in an attempt to prove themselves worthy of love and affection.
  • Fear of rejection and criticism. May become highly upset at any form of disapproval.
  • Self-sacrifice and putting the needs of others first.
  • Struggles with being single or alone for periods of time. Relationships and intimacy are strongly connected with an anxious attacher’s feelings of self-worth, therefore they may crave attention and try to impress others in an attempt to get it.
  • Attentiveness to loved ones – almost to a fault. Others may end up taking advantage of this kind and generous nature because of this trait.
Attachment graph

Score Mother/CG1: Anxiety: 4 | Avoidance: 3

Score Father/CG2: Anxiety: 2.33 | Avoidance: 2.33

Score Partner: Anxiety: 6.33 | Avoidance: 4

Score General: Anxiety: 5.67 | Avoidance: 2.67

What does this graph mean?

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